My World

but luckily we dont really take 10-20 baths in 6 hours a day…hehehe… or else even the water in the water tank wont be enough…

today was an ok day lar…didnt really talk much with anyone at all… just plain lazy to open my mouth… im currently reading a book by Tash Aw entitled The Harmony Silk Factory… it so happens that my Rodney left it at home when they came back… so since i have nothing much to do, reading it would be ok lar…the story? oklar… bout a guy named Johnny Lim. the story was told from 3 different people, his son, his wife and his friend… ok lar… wasnt talking but only reading lor…

what’s worse? not talking much or reading mails from your friend telling of the happiness with his/her gf/bf. not that i mind reading but sometimes, i cant help myself but feeling envy towards my friend. makes me wonder, why on earth i cant have a normal life sometimes…no unhappiness…n sadness… im sure life is also not a bed of roses for my friend lar…i understand that he/she just wants to share his/her happiness lar.. im not jealous…just a biiiiitt envious lar…

ooo yea, im on the road to recovery… nah…im not sick…just a bit tired and dried…inside outside… but hopefully by the time im back pg, everything wil be restored…

i hope i get a room with good "pengaliran udara" in cahaya instead of gemilang. hope the toilets/bathrooms are usable…:(… worry bout that…oh yea, i pray for a space to put my car n that i wont get into trouble with the pak guards again. yea…again…the other time i was really sorry… unfortunately, i dont feel like reminding myself what i did…:)

Nothing outside a man can make him ‘unclean’ by going into him. Rather, it is what comes out of a man that makes him ‘unclean’

One of the reasons foul languages are not allowed… i know… i’ll try to stop… hey, im not those "King of the foul language" ok!!?? hehehe…

I have not been reading the Bible as often liao… just the other day, ps. albert was calling to tell bout church camp. n yea, he commented that my language also became a biiiitttt flowery… n yea, i kinda admit that… but hey, i have been reading my Bible more often now…

something happened that i didnt really like. something that made me think "Where is God?"

My r/ship with God was always not a stable one. Sometimes im in, sometimes im out. i learn that being a christian is also not easy. Yes, its full of God’s blessing but it is also full of temptations by the devil and also tests by The Man Himself. just like Bro. Yun who wrote "the Heavenly Man"…

If you are in, you’ll find it easy to pass through but if you’r out, then, you’ll have difficulties like what i encounter.

i guess the key is to always communicate with God. Tell him of your problems as well as listen to Him.

He is the potter and i am only the clay.

At least, today, it was bearable. i was glad that i was talking with God once again. It’s somewhere i can find solace. somewhere i can draw my strength. somewhere to find peace.

Thank You, My Friend!

Well, last Sat-25th June, Bethany Home, Simpang Empat, a school for the epileptic, held a food n fun fair. It was err…well, I helped this year. I was there last year and i felt that the number of ppl this year was not as much as it was like last year. This year, also similar lar…with plenty of stalls… food stalls, games… hey, they even have ppl cutting hair… ah well, all for good cause….

we sold balloons… we had a tank of helium gas, went there to blow the balloons up…but unfortunately, after only a few balloons, we sort of ran out of gas..hahah… Funny, yet its such a pity…it would be sellable lar… we had that tank for some time liao… so maybe it evaporated or something…. hehehe… well, that is what i think lar…

im posting a couple of pics for your eyes… n hey, i went to get "inai" drawn on my hands…check out the pics below… the "inai" thing is kinda cool! i think i wanna get another one lar…

Day 2 of Sam’s death. I am still very sad… I’m happy that she need not suffer anymore, it’s just that I miss her too. I’ve never really had anyone that i’m near die. She’s the closest liao.

well, my grandma died (father’s side) but then, that was like ages ago when i was really young. i cried then because everyone was crying. but then my grandpa (father’s side) died as well, i dont really remember crying. i did cry when we put Toby and Lady to sleep but that was when i was young. I did cry but only for a short while. Even when Jet died, i didnt cry. well, the same, i was too young to understand fully what sadness is and i didnt really have the same attachment that i had with Sam. The rest of the dogs were sort of bought when young. But Fido and Sam were the 1st and the last litters of Lady. Anyway, Fido is way older than Sam but he is still very much alive and eating just as much.

well, i r’bered crying when Onex (my grandpa’s dog[mom's side]) died. He was an alsatian. A great dog as well. but then, it was just for a moment too.

Sam is different. i was writing in my diary bout Sam. I just started crying all over again. i couldnt sleep… so im here now… this is terrible. Crying over a dead dog!! Not JUST ANY DOG!! It’s SAM! Fido is sad too. i feel it. He was looking for Sam when i was feeding him yesterday morning.

I cant help crying whenever i think of Sam. But i think im getting ok. Yesterday was worse. any mention of Sam, the water pipes automatically turned on. Will not stop till i’ve run out of water…;) Freaky, isnt it? i just cant help it, that’s all…

U think its funny dont you? since its not even human…u’d think, "it’s just a dog, for heaven sake! Dont make a mountain out of mole hill!"… well, yea, "it’s just a dog, it’s MY DOG, my baby…"

  My dog died yesterday. She has not been eating for some time now. I knew something was wrong. My grandfather told me that if a dog does not eat for a couple of days, the dog’s time is almost up. But I didnt wanna accept that. I gave her antibiotics, but she vomitted everything out…

i thought of calling the vet tmr, to put her out of her suffering, but i guess, she was faster… I called my sis telling her bout Sam’s condition, then when I passed the phone over to my mom, I went outside to the living room. Then, I just felt an urge to go n see Sam. So, when I went to her, she was stone-cold.

I’ve wrapped her up and put in a box. A friend came to take her away to be buried. She is a loving and beautiful dog… I am goin to miss her. Well, Fido already misses her…

Now, I just feel like onlining till 5-6am but since im not on broadband, i guess i cant.

SAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!! She was skinny, but then, she became skinnier, then she just took her last breath yesterday night… well… like what’s been said, at least, she’s in peace…

i played badminton today…:) it was tiring but nice cuz havent played for a very long time…:) played with LSH n TYH…

nothing much to write today… i thought i had a lot of things to write but it seems that the game gave me amnesia…heheh… temp. amnesia…

so i have nothing to write lor…heheh…

Was in a bad mood yesterday…but despite my mood, i still watched the Phantom of the Opera… AND i LOVE it….

ooo…i have always love PTO. When i was in London, i wanted to watch the musical, but i didnt have the chance. im keeping my fingers cross… one day i’ll go and watch…

aiyah… i know, they did the musical here once in KL but i was unable to go lar…one is sponsorship the other is i was in Penang….:’<

i bought CD when i was in …err… can’t remember lar…

The songs are sooooo nice…

i actually do not know the story till i saw the movie, i didnt know how the ending would be like. hmm, now i do… kinda sad…

all through the show, i was like "oh, poor phantom…" >sad<>sad<

And the person behind the mask is… ???

and HE SINGS!! Well, there are many out there who can sing as well…:)

well, according to what i’ve dug up, this guy is still single n unattached…heheh… just letting you know lar…

And here is "Christine Daae"…. cutie, ain’t she?

do you believe that looks can be deceiving? you believe, yet you dont really know when it’s deceiving you….

the world looks really nice and full of enjoyment but ppl tend to forget that it also can be a cruel world. but u dont know when it’s a nice and kind world or when it will be cruel…can the world be cruel? or is it man that makes others feel that the world is being cruel to them? hmm…that’s a lil’ twisted…hehehe… cant really understand what i typed myself..

a world of happiness and sadness. But then, what is happiness without disappoinment? at least it makes you cherish your happy times even more. Right?

just came to mind: what bout those who have more disappoinments than happy times? how do they keep an optimistic mind? i dunno what i’d do if i have more sad times than happy times in my life…i guess i’ll be sad most of the time then.

y can’t life b simpler? have you thought bout that? y must life be full of …err… you know, so many stuffs? so many stuffs to think bout…yuck!y is there worry? y is there anger? y is it that "impatient" attitude is there? ungratefulness n ppl who are forever finding other ppl’s faults?

never-ending problems… unless…**

ps: ** is for me to know and for you to find out! good luck! and hey, dont think weird/useless thoughts, k!! cuz it’s not! GOOD LUCK ONCE AGAIN!