Still sad..
Day 2 of Sam’s death. I am still very sad… I’m happy that she need not suffer anymore, it’s just that I miss her too. I’ve never really had anyone that i’m near die. She’s the closest liao.
well, my grandma died (father’s side) but then, that was like ages ago when i was really young. i cried then because everyone was crying. but then my grandpa (father’s side) died as well, i dont really remember crying. i did cry when we put Toby and Lady to sleep but that was when i was young. I did cry but only for a short while. Even when Jet died, i didnt cry. well, the same, i was too young to understand fully what sadness is and i didnt really have the same attachment that i had with Sam. The rest of the dogs were sort of bought when young. But Fido and Sam were the 1st and the last litters of Lady. Anyway, Fido is way older than Sam but he is still very much alive and eating just as much.
well, i r’bered crying when Onex (my grandpa’s dog[mom's side]) died. He was an alsatian. A great dog as well. but then, it was just for a moment too.
Sam is different. i was writing in my diary bout Sam. I just started crying all over again. i couldnt sleep… so im here now… this is terrible. Crying over a dead dog!! Not JUST ANY DOG!! It’s SAM! Fido is sad too. i feel it. He was looking for Sam when i was feeding him yesterday morning.
I cant help crying whenever i think of Sam. But i think im getting ok. Yesterday was worse. any mention of Sam, the water pipes automatically turned on. Will not stop till i’ve run out of water…;) Freaky, isnt it? i just cant help it, that’s all…
U think its funny dont you? since its not even human…u’d think, "it’s just a dog, for heaven sake! Dont make a mountain out of mole hill!"… well, yea, "it’s just a dog, it’s MY DOG, my baby…"
