My World

I dreamt that our house fence came down and my dog ran out… i went after her and when we went back to house, fido (my dead n buried dog) came out to greet us… i was soooooo happy to see fido… sigh… i miss fido very much! i like fido cuz i could cuddle him n he sits still when i touch him… sigh…

Unfortunately my current dog, lucky, is way tooooooooo hyperactive… sigh… lack of training, i admit… even when i wanna touch her, she’s like jumping all over… too much for me lar… hahahaha…

The other day, OEL mentioned in her blog bout dreams… makes me wonder why sometimes i get ‘dejavu’ feelings when im doin certain things… i mean i get that REAL often… when i get a dejavu feeling, i feel creepy.. dunno why… i just do… more often gives me the creeps rather than any excitement.

past couple days (till now lar), i just feel like cari gaduh lar… ahhaha…ntah ngape…

AAARRRGGGHHH…………………… M GRADUATING!! M EXPECTING LOADS of presents ya………….. ahhahahahah…………….
NAHHHHHHHHH…………. just kidding lar… u think i so materialistic meh… just the presence of you guys (if u remember to come) is good enough…:)… hahah…

i wonder what i should get for all my frens lar… ahem… i mean those who are graduating le…gonna pokai soon ler… hehehe…. have a feeeelinnn…. hahahha…

Thank you very much on your support n comments n advice.. Sigh.. True, i wouldnt wanna board a wrong bus n end up in another destination which in turn i have to board another bus to get to my destination…BUT… i dont mind boarding the bus if i get to see spectacular scenary…even though i might end up in another destination… hheheh…

I was thinking…. oh oh… what was i thinking?? aarrggghhh… this happens often lar… thinker’s block… hahhaha…

Oh ya, i have decided to go camp lar… though i had hope v, ‘penganggur’ would get rebates… hahaha… nah, just kidding…

u know, each day that m here, i feel, i cant take it being in charge of this place. i cant imagine how i’d do it. i dont know whether its because i just don wanna learn or i dont like it here that im not learning… i have a fear… if i learn too much, there’s a burden for me to be in charge… when i dont wanna be…

It suddenly rained! Its good, considering how hot it has been these few days…

m not over my cough thingy yet which sucks cuz, apparently, if i sleep early i.e. 10 or 11pm, i’ll wake up at 2am coughing my lungs out (cuz medication wore off d). So… might as well sleep at 12-1am… at least i sleep through till morning… hehe.. the only problem is getting up at 530am lar… hahahh…

IM DESPERATE!!!aaaaaaaarrrrrrgggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…………

HECK!! Dont even try to think secara songsang… hahaha… im just desperate cuz have not really found a really really permanent job… preferably in Penang… I am currently helping with family business back home.. but my heart longs for something more.. something further away than teluk intan… sigh…

TBC is having her annual camp in Aug.. this time its in Penang Hill.. Aug 4th-6th. I hope I can go… well, 95% says I can go, the other 5% is actually still deciding cuz I’m not sure whether I wanna drive or bus… everything has its positive n negative side… sigh… bus, i save up on $$ ler.. but by car, its convenient ler… sigh… NTAHLAH…

But anyhow I’ll be going to let my anger or sadness or whatever that is inside out by playing badminton…hahaha…

Later!!